MISCARRIAGE

A dear friend of mine recently went through a miscarriage. She wrote something that I found profound, so I asked her if I may share it with you. Here is what she wrote. Miscarriage ... what a heavy word. It’s still difficult to gather my mind around it. You see awareness post all over, Facebook, Instagram, even on Pinterest. Sometimes I would just quickly read it, most of the time just scroll through it. My heart went out to all the 1 in 4 women who suffered the loss of their unborn baby. Yes, my heart went out to all the women out there. Never for one minute, not even a second, did I imagine something like this will ever happen to me. On the 7th of August 2019 my life changed forever... I changed forever. I woke up that morning in a puddle of blood. I won't go into too much detail, but I lost our precious baby at 7 weeks and I never even saw it coming. It was the most painfully traumatic experience of my life. After seeing our doctor and being told that it was a unsuccessful miscarriage, I had to get a D&C the next day. I was so scared and so sad. My last bit of hope was taken away as the D&C made everything so final. I was pregnant, and then, suddenly, I was not. I felt empty. I felt like a part me was just gone, dead. My husband is amazing and I feel blessed to have him. He gives me the time and space to feel what I need to feel. I know he is sad too, even though he tries not to show it too much, but I can see it, feel it. I needed something to hold onto, something I could only get from my faith. When everything went quiet and I was alone, after all the doctors and operations and I was safe at home, I remembered that morning, while everything was happening, this scripture came to me, and I remember talking to my husband over the phone and actually saying it to him, "Job 1:21b" "The LORD gave and the LORD has taken away; may the name of the LORD be praised." I fully and completely believe God gave me that scripture, at that moment, so that I can have the strength I needed to help me through this. At first I thought it’s not fair. Why give and then just take away? I was so extremely sad and confused and I kept thinking that I may never get the answer. But, I believe God has a plan with my life, with all out lives. I believe God had a plan with my baby's life and that my baby fulfilled His plan. I believe my baby is in heaven. I’m still sad. I still feel like something is missing, but, I have found peace with God. I am not angry. And even though I am still sad, it makes me smile to think a part of me is safely with God. xo L My heart goes out to all parents that has gone through something like this. May God keep you strong and give you peace. 💛 Mama Theo.Ri

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